Well, since my last journal entry was in December, i figured i should get off my ass and update it, haha.

It's probably because i rarely spend much time at DevArt anymore. I bounce in and out, occasionally looking on those i have in my fav's list to see if they've churned out any new work that rocks. But as a whole, haven't been feeling overly creative myself. Which happens quite a bit in my life, i go through spurts of activity and desire. Wherein i will devote myself entirely to a subject or idea for around 6 months, doing everything i can to maximize my time on it. Yet after that period, to keep things fresh, i tend to cycle onto something new.

It's an odd habit, but i think stems from my Jack-of-all-Trades mentality. Because i would rather have knowledge in a wide array of subjects, but not truly a master of any...than be a highly limited master of 1. Just doesn't promote flexibility. And that has been something that life has shown me over the years to be integral if i don't want to fail. Since your capable of just moving to a safer venue when your not stuck having to regurgitate the same thing over and over again.

Such is life though. Luckily mine is about to take some interesting curves. I'm about to finally be able to close the book on a chapter in my life. Allowing the past to fade away, and the future to loom bright on the horizon. It's been a chapter lasting a decade, all stemming from the murder of my father. But with the final piece of his estate about to be sold off this week and a substatial amount of money heading my way, it will be utterly cathartic. No longer will i be forced to deal with lawyers, realtors, renters, and bills from something that wasn't incurred on my own. This in and of itself is going to just be a gigantic burden off my mind. As it's limited my options for years, due to always needing to be in the loop and control just what was taking place. All because my dad didn't have a Will when he died that would have just straight given everything to me. Had he done so, no problems would have happened, and i wouldn't have managed to lose around $200,000 in legal fees, taxes, depreciation, etc... It's just not a small amount of money to sneeze at, and makes me nutty to think of what i could have done with it over the years...but noooooo, a single piece of paper that anyone can write up in about 5mins cost me a decade of time and 200k. Not pretty to think about, that's for damn sure.

But i'm at the end, and from now on, it's only going to be what i want to do that will determine my future. The only ties that bind will be of my own making. Willfully chosen and allowed to take root. I won't be subject to the mechinations of forces outside of my control, having to bow to their whims because they had a position of power higher than my own. It is a good day. I stand before a hallway of endless doors that open onto opportunity. Where will they take me, i just don't know. But i'm willing to find out. Nay, i'm damn near school girl giddy to find out. Because no matter what, moving forward is vastly superior to being stuck in the past and incapable of true progress.

So evolve yourselves, evolve the Planet, and let's make changes that will become legend. For i am Rick Nelson, and this is my World.